Friday, May 27, 2011
This is a tribute to the husband I've lost.
The beginning of 2009 brought on more challenges and hardships then I ever thought any one person could or should have to take. Then he came into my life. He was the light that I thought was gone from my life forever. He changed my world.
He is a very thoughtful person. When we were dating I told him all about how much I love holidays and how my birthday has never been a big deal in my family, and he promised me he would make my birthdays special, and he did! The two easters we shared, he had easter egg hunts for me, and easter baskets, our valentines days were full of romantic thoughtfulness, like flowers and candy and tons of hearts he had cut out by hand. Birthdays and Christmas's were full of fun thoughtful gifts. For my 25th birthday he even had a little surprise party for me with his siblings, they put balloons all over their living room and jumped out and yelled surprise.
We shared lots of goofy nick-names and additions to the ends of words. We had some great times together!! There are things in my life that will never be the same because of him. I will never be able to look at or eat an avacado again, with out thinking of him, nor will I ever be able to put on my motorcycle gear that he gave me, without remember my fond memories of motorcylce adventures, and him teaching me how to ride. We also had some very hard times together. Marriage was nothing like what we thought it was going to be like, and we definitely had challenges. Somehow, though we loved each other very much, and will always have a place in our hearts for each other, we just couldn't seem to make it work. Yesterday was the day that I had to make the hardest decision of my life, after months of agonizing over what to do, and today I had to follow through with that decision. Its been SO hard and very emotional, but I know that we will make it through this, and hopefully be better people because of it.
The hardest lesson for me, out of this whole mess, has been that no matter how hard we try and no matter how much we want to, we can not take away any one elses free agency, because it is a very personal gift each of us has been given. There were times I knew I could have made it better if he would have just listened to me. And I know that he feels the same way, except the other way around.
It is absolutely devestating to think about the future, more than just an hour or two ahead, because it feels so hopeless, and even thinking just an hour or two ahead is sometimes more then I can handle. I am so grateful to my family for the support and love and kindness they have given me to help me get through this.
I have to end this because the pain is so intense, but I hope that I can always remember the good parts of my marriage and the good qualities that he possessed, and the good times we had together. They will not fade quickly, maybe not ever, but I needed to write something to help me remember and especially to remember that we loved each other!
The beginning of 2009 brought on more challenges and hardships then I ever thought any one person could or should have to take. Then he came into my life. He was the light that I thought was gone from my life forever. He changed my world.
He is a very thoughtful person. When we were dating I told him all about how much I love holidays and how my birthday has never been a big deal in my family, and he promised me he would make my birthdays special, and he did! The two easters we shared, he had easter egg hunts for me, and easter baskets, our valentines days were full of romantic thoughtfulness, like flowers and candy and tons of hearts he had cut out by hand. Birthdays and Christmas's were full of fun thoughtful gifts. For my 25th birthday he even had a little surprise party for me with his siblings, they put balloons all over their living room and jumped out and yelled surprise.
We shared lots of goofy nick-names and additions to the ends of words. We had some great times together!! There are things in my life that will never be the same because of him. I will never be able to look at or eat an avacado again, with out thinking of him, nor will I ever be able to put on my motorcycle gear that he gave me, without remember my fond memories of motorcylce adventures, and him teaching me how to ride. We also had some very hard times together. Marriage was nothing like what we thought it was going to be like, and we definitely had challenges. Somehow, though we loved each other very much, and will always have a place in our hearts for each other, we just couldn't seem to make it work. Yesterday was the day that I had to make the hardest decision of my life, after months of agonizing over what to do, and today I had to follow through with that decision. Its been SO hard and very emotional, but I know that we will make it through this, and hopefully be better people because of it.
The hardest lesson for me, out of this whole mess, has been that no matter how hard we try and no matter how much we want to, we can not take away any one elses free agency, because it is a very personal gift each of us has been given. There were times I knew I could have made it better if he would have just listened to me. And I know that he feels the same way, except the other way around.
It is absolutely devestating to think about the future, more than just an hour or two ahead, because it feels so hopeless, and even thinking just an hour or two ahead is sometimes more then I can handle. I am so grateful to my family for the support and love and kindness they have given me to help me get through this.
I have to end this because the pain is so intense, but I hope that I can always remember the good parts of my marriage and the good qualities that he possessed, and the good times we had together. They will not fade quickly, maybe not ever, but I needed to write something to help me remember and especially to remember that we loved each other!
Thursday, May 19, 2011
So, This is not a recipe blog, but, I saw this and it looked amazing, and it IS amazing, so I thought I would share.
Grilled Pizza Chicken Kabobs
Serves 2, 35 minute prep time
3/4 lb uncooked chicken breast tenders (not breaded)
1/2 medium red bell pepper, cut into 1-inch pieces (1/2 cup)
1/2 package (8-oz size) fresh whole mushrooms
2 tablespoons reduced-fat Italian dressing
1 teaspoon pizza seasoning
2 tablespoons grated Parmesan cheese
1/4 cup pizza sauce (from 14-oz jar)
1 Heat gas or charcoal grill. On each of two 11-inch metal skewers, thread chicken, bell pepper and mushrooms alternately, leaving 1/2-inch space between each piece. Brush kabobs with dressing; sprinkle with pizza seasoning.
2 Cover and grill kabobs over medium heat 9 to 11 minutes, turning once, until chicken is no longer pink in center. Sprinkle immediately with cheese.
3 Meanwhile, in 1-quart saucepan, heat pizza sauce over low heat. Serve kabobs with warm sauce.
Grilled Pizza Chicken Kabobs
Serves 2, 35 minute prep time
3/4 lb uncooked chicken breast tenders (not breaded)
1/2 medium red bell pepper, cut into 1-inch pieces (1/2 cup)
1/2 package (8-oz size) fresh whole mushrooms
2 tablespoons reduced-fat Italian dressing
1 teaspoon pizza seasoning
2 tablespoons grated Parmesan cheese
1/4 cup pizza sauce (from 14-oz jar)
1 Heat gas or charcoal grill. On each of two 11-inch metal skewers, thread chicken, bell pepper and mushrooms alternately, leaving 1/2-inch space between each piece. Brush kabobs with dressing; sprinkle with pizza seasoning.
2 Cover and grill kabobs over medium heat 9 to 11 minutes, turning once, until chicken is no longer pink in center. Sprinkle immediately with cheese.
3 Meanwhile, in 1-quart saucepan, heat pizza sauce over low heat. Serve kabobs with warm sauce.
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